I’d take a boob punch for deefizzy and that says a lot cuz they hurt REAL bad.
I’ve been in a dark place for far too long now to the point where i feel like i have missed out on living these past few years, but yet it feels as if i have no control of it. People on the outside just think I want to live like this, but in reality there is something physically wrong with me. As…
i know you are working hard at trying to live a healthier lifestyle and i will always support you no matter what!you will always be perfect to me with any appearence or anything about you !ily damon💕💕💕
Thank you so much
I’m sorry for that massive post I did last night. I was a complete and utter mess. I’ve just read through all the messages people sent me and I am trying so hard not to cry because I am on the bus back from school but i am honestly so grateful for all the messages! Luckily I didn’t go through with my plan last night even though I did relapse but in a way, me relapsing is a good things because it was that the stopped me killing myself. I know it’s not healthy and I am trying to stop once again. I broke nearly two years of not cutting but weirdly I’m not ashamed of myself.
Thank you so so much for the amazing messages you sent and it’s those that will keep me going tonight
I am so fed up of feeling like complete shit. I’m fed up of making my family’s lives a misery. All I do is ruin their lives. People say ‘of course you don’t ruin their lives. Don’t be stupid.’ I literally do ruin there lives. I wish I could drive so I could pack my bags in the middle of the night, sneak out and just be out of their lives so they can live happy lives. I don’t know what is going on inside my head. I just know that whatever it is is killing me. It used to be two voices in my head; a voice of reason and a voice convincing me that I should die. Now there is only the one and all that is doing is telling me to just grab a handful of pills and ram them down my throat and then just cut until there is no more skin left and right now that sounds like the perfect idea. I am having a breakdown. My dad nearly called the ambulance tonight because I was hysterical. I wouldn’t be hysterical if they knew that shouting and grabbing someone did not help their panic attack. Now I have bruises all over my body because no one will just leave me alone. I want to be left alone. I’ve barricaded myself in my bedroom, hoping that I won’t wake up. They think it’s because they are making me go to school. It’s not. It’s because I have singlehandedly ruined my mum’s life. Sorry for this, I just had to get it out. If you don’t here from me then you’ll know I’ve finally escaped the demons in my own head. Bye.
*Do not delete text please. It’s rude
and I can find out who did it.* ☻
I never knew that decorating and
drawing Damon’s name could be
so fun. I decided to add some glitter
to the drawing because why not? :)
Please don’t steal the picture or
remove the credit. ❀ deefizzy
✩ ig // @fault_in_our_eyes ✩